September 18th, 2007

So whats new with you?
I have physical therapy again today and it kind of sucks. I dont really like riding a stationary bike for 20 minutes, it kind of hurts. I'm not skating today....more withdraw symptoms, but don't worry I'll be there tomorrow. I really want to sleep. School is boring, except lunch. My head hurts, I don't feel well. I want to go home.

Sealed and Signed,
Gracie Deiss

Back to school

Ok, so this is already my second week of high school! It's definitely a new experience, but all the same I like it. I just dont always feel secure with myself. I've come to terms with the fact that I have OCD but I dont yet know how to control it. I find myself changing outfits in the morning at least twice and crossing things out because the letters didn't look right. I definitely haven't been skating as much as I'm used to. I'm having withdrawl symptoms. My physical therapy is not at all fun, i hate it. It hurts. And I don't find my knees improving. I think I need to go see a podiatrist but my mom refuses. I'm almost ready to test the Kilian, my first PreGold dance. I'm nervous. I'm afraid I might not get better. I'm afraid I'll let my team down this year. I'm afraid those 11 years of dedication and perserverance might be wasted. I'm afraid I will fail.
Sealed and Signed,
Gracie Deiss